Getting Closer

I think I'm getting closer to where I need to be. Some things have shifted in my heart and I'm ready to move on. Am I healed? I don't know for sure. Will I ever heal? That's the real question. But do I have a right to heal? Do I have a right to feel the sun on my face and walk in the light and make music again? Is there any blame in those things? God gave me life and light and beauty and joy, and enjoying what he gave me honors him. I don't want to worship the past. I want to worship right now, the blessings and the real things. Do it with all my heart, not just a timid toe in the water. I'm putting down all the heaviness. Christ will carry the burdens, just as he promised to. I'm going to walk into joy now, not looking back.